If you have ears or in this case eyes you have definitely heard me talk about wanting to grow our family. Wanting and needing to get pregnant more than I wanted or needed air. I wanted our family to become a family of five. To me that feels complete.
I had baby fever and in a baaaad way. Well I'm stating right here and now that the said baby fever is so O-V-E-R. For real.
I was recently in a Buy Buy Baby buying a shower gift and you know what? All that cute little baby stuff didn't look cute at all to me. Not one single bit. I think it is safe to say baby fever is kind of gone. All that stuff just looked like one big expensive mess that was going to cost me a shit ton and clutter up my house. You don't even use it for that long. I walked away not really wanting any of it.
Kelly and I are kind of on the train of lets see what happens after summer.
I mean we spent two months giving it a true go. I'm still not on my birth control (I considered starting up again) and had a little plus sign blessed those many sticks of mine I would have been so so so very happy! But that didn't happen and now that phase is kind of gone for me.
All the thinking and acting and trying has kind of made me want to focus on me. Focus on the girls and Kelly and be happy as the four of us for a little while.
Just us four. I'm good with that for awhile.
So if you see me out and about drinking or are peeking in my windows just know if I have a drink in hand I am totally NOT pregnant.
Someday- maybe? But just not right now.