I know I promised vacation photos, but this is what came out instead . . .
I didn't blog at all last week while on vacation, which honestly surprised me. I thought I would be all over it since I had the time, but I wasn't. The urge wasn't even there. Sometimes I just need to live life. I love my blog. I love all the people I have met through blogging. Blogging has added so much to my life- stuff I didn't even know I ever needed/wanted and I am forever grateful I have this opportunity to spread my nonsense on a piece of the interent I can call my own. I am more grateful that people actually take time out of their day to read it. Thank you.
I'm in a mind funk this week. I know it's only Tuesday, but I need to just step back for a minute. Being away for a week was amazing, but coming back with 7 days before school starts is a little stressful and overwhelming at the same time. Don't get me wrong- I wouldn't take back the trip or even change when we went. I am just trying to process all this stuff.
To be honest I think I'm just making lists and adding stuff to keep myself busy. To keep my brain from thinking. Next week opens a new chapter in my life. In
our life. Olivia and Gracie will be going back to school Monday. Olivia 3rd grade and Gracie 1st grade. August 27th
feels like a date I will forever remember. A date that will change me. For the first time in my life I will not have a job and Olivia and Gracie will be in school full-time. As in ALL DAY LONG. Wow. I am unsure of what that means. I feel excited and scared all at once. I want to jump for joy and crawl into fetal position and bawl my eyes out. It's strange. It
feels strange. I'm not exactly sure what to do with myself.
I will be needed
less. I will be needed in different ways. I no longer have an excuse to not organize the linen closet, go to the gym, or make dinner. It's now just me 8:30 - 4:00 Monday through Friday. Just me. Damn it feels strange and I'm sure there are a million in one things I could be doing to occupy my time, but it will still be a transition.
I need sometime this week to clear my head. To come off of the vacation high. To suck in these last few days with my girls. To just
live. I might be MIA this week {I'm sorry about that}. I hope to have closure at the end of this week and a plan. A plan on what the hell to do with my life while the two children I have created my life around are busy living theirs. Like I said strange. Exciting, but strange.
I'm sure I will survive and be able to look back at this and laugh, but right now it feels anything but funny. It feels scary. So I'm taking a little time to clear my head and live a bit. Wish me one hell of a good plan.